First of all, I'm re-doing my blog because I was bored with the old one. So, please be patient as it's under a lot of contruction. LOL
I have really been slacking on my posts huh? Sorry about that, not that I expect anyone to really care, but incase someone, anyone out there in Siberia does ..... forgive me. One reason is that I've been mega busy. Ball games almost everynight and studying in top of that. The second reason is that I can't log onto my blog because I don't have the new google account. Before I'd always logged in with my old blogger account and it's saying it is'nt recognizing it and it's really pising my off to tell ya the truth. lol I can't really say how I got on here today to post this. Somehow I went and changed a password because I thought that I forgot mine or something (NOT) and when I did it automatically directed me here. I tried logging off and logging back in under the new password and same thing again. SO I changed again so I could sneak in and post something. I don't know what I've done at this point. I have so many accounts and passwords I'm lost. Ha! So I'm going to try and get my husband to fix this and figure out what my account is so I can log in without having to change my password everytime. Ok, now that you're tired of listening to me rant about this, here's the latest:
I know it says on my blog that I only have 2 days left of school, but technically I still have a week and a half. Today was actually my last nursing lecture. WOO HOOOOOOOOOOOO! On Monday I have a lecture test in Micro, Wednesday I have my second psych test in nursing and Thursday I have my last lab test in micro. Pretty busy week huh? The next week...Monday the 7th is my nursing final and Wednesday the 9th is my micro final. THEN I'll be "officialy" complete with 3rd semester....hopefully. I have probably said all of this before, but I have short term memory loss related to studying for 5 tests at once AND I'm too lazy to go back and read what I've written previously. He he.
Two nights ago as I was reading a case study on rabies I saw something strange out of the corner of my eye. "What was that?" I thought. "Probably just my eyes playing tricks on me." I replied to myself. Then I saw it again, this time it was much more up close and personal. Actually it was flying at my head and then I realized that it wasn't the floaters in my eyes that make me crazy, but a BAT! EEEEK! I screamed like the skeerdy kat I am and took off running, but low and behold someone else runs ahead of me. They must be chasing the bat. Thank goodness! Wait, that was my husband. Why is he runnin away from the bat? Shouldn't he be running toward the bat trying to shoo it out the door or swat at it like all those manly men do? Why is he running in the room and shutting the door? This is strange. Then it hits me...he's more scared than me. Practically shoving me out of the way to save hiself. PFFFT! What if we were on a plane and it's going down, is he going to take the oxygen mask for himself too? Geez! This is a load of crap. More stunned from the lack of chivalry than from the bat floating around my head, I knock on the door. "Are you going to hide in there or come out and help me get this bat out of the house?" So he steps out and is ducking and doing some odd tribal dance and using me as his shield. Ok, first of all, I love my husband and he'd kill me if he knew I was telling anyone this (LMAO) but come on!!!! Don't leave me out here by myself man...Let my ass in there too! SO after much coaxing and having the "I'm freaking out too" talk I convince him we must do something because I was just reading that these nasty, evil mice with wings have rabies!! So to make a long story short in our ranting we lost the bat. We searched the house on tip toe looking for the thing. I'm standing in my sons room talking and I look up and there it is, above my head , HANGING ASLEEP on the molding above their door! EEEK EEEEK EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEK!!! I've never been this close to a bat, they're hairy and scary and eew. We tried shooing it out the door...didn't work, we tried running around like our hair was on fire, that didnt work either so we came up with a plan that my dh was going to whack it really hard with a broom. It took him 15 good solid minutes to get the courage to hit it and once he did...it didn't even move. It starting making this clicking, hissing, screeching, God awful sounds. Then he hit it again and finally it fell to the floor, but was still making those nosies I will never forget. I thought it was hurt and tried to get it with a broom to scoop in a bag, as I got close to it, turned it's ugly head, bared it's teeth and starting chomping and making this screechy garbage disposale sound. UGH! Shudder! It flapped out it's wings ready to fight and I ran again like a big ole chicken. LOL We finally called the park ranger (across the street) and he came and got it with a sheet. He said he's done this before....obviously we haven't. I'm sure he thought we were a couple of idiots, but I didn't care. I wasn't going to contract rabies, or worse...turn into a vampire.;-) That would suck. SO....that was an interesing night. I guess it came in through the fireplace. Note to self...seal the damn thang! I took some pics and will post them as soon as I upload them from my camera...that's if I can find away to log in. Ha!
Sigh....so here we are at the end. It's finally that time and I'm really happy. I just need to get through these tests. It is going to feel good to be a free woman. I get to clean my house and cook and read and swim and go on a vacation. I deserve it, that may sound arrogant, but I do. I am just ready to be mommy for a while and devote all of my attention to my 4 awesome boys. They are all doing so well in school and sports and I am so proud. Despite the joking earlier, my husband has really stepped up to the plate...literally. He's coaching the twins baseball team, attending all of our oldest son's ball games (who is now 13...Lord help us all), picking them up and taking them everywhere everyday, cooking, cleaning, keeping everything together as best as he can all while working a full time job. Forget Batman, he's Superman in my eyes. I'm a lucky gal I guess. :-) He puts up with a lot and I know he's just as ready for summer break as I am so he can get back to being "normal" too.
We had to take another ATI test today. For those of you who aren't familiar they are competency type tests about nursing subjects and it's suppose to be similar to the NCLEX. It's to see how well prepared we are and where are weaknesses are and what we need to work on. We don't get graded on them, but have to take them over every subject we cover each semester. Anyway, as I was sitting there I was thinking what I will feel like on the day of the actual NCLEX exam. I am going to be a nervous wreck I'm sure. The NCLEX is a computer test (state nursing boards- what gives you that RN behind your name) that gives you questions and the more you get right the harder they get and if you get one wrong the difficulty level decreases etc...you get the drift. The test can shut off at 75 questions and you can pass or fail or it could shut off at 265 questions and you could pass or fail. There is no rhyme or reason and all you can do is wait....wait with your stomach in knots to find out if you passed. In the olden (He he) days they had to wait weeks to months to get their scores. Now you can find out online in just a few days. Those will be the longest days of my life....next to awaiting my acceptance letter. Speaking of that day, I remember it very well. I waited and waited for months to find out one way or another. (You all know the feeling) I imaged what I would feel if I got rejected and vice versa. I played it in my head many times. I was at home by myself that day and I checked the mail and there it was....the letter. I was so scared to open it, but I practically ripped it open and almost ripped the letter too. The first few words read...Congratulations! You have been selected....and I didn't read the rest until later. My first reaction was WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! Then I immediately felt kinda scared, like....what did I do? Oh no! I was shocked by this feeling. It was certainly unexpected. I felt like I'd just stepped in a huge pile of dung that wouldn't come off of my shoe. I was anxiously awaiting this for so long and the awaited emotions were sideline by a feeling of doom. I was just unsure and scared at that time. I don't guess I thought past the letter part. LOL I always say...if I knew then what I know now... It has been the best experience I've ever had outside of my family obviously, but it's been a long hard road to walk down so I'm not sure if I would go forward knowing how difficult it really is. Nurses and nursing students are so underrated. The average public doesn't realize the amount of education and hard work is put into becoming a nurse. I've learned a lot of people assume we go to a trade school and come away with a certificate or something. They have no idea. You see all of these shows on tv about doctors and laywers and what they need to do is have a show about nursing school and nurses. I guarantee, if it's based on reality, it would be a hit. All the craziness. I'm surprised this hasn't been done before. I have some really intelligent students in my class and they struggle too, it's a very challenging career, but I really believe I did the right thing and I'm excited for my future and what being a nurse will bring. I know it won't be fun all the time. I'm not jaded. I know the horrors and the labor of this career. I know that some of the people you work with will stab you in the back quicker than that bat flew at my head, but as long as I'm doing what I love, none of that will matter. Hopefully I can pick a specialty and love it. I'm still undecided on that area. One day, hopefully soon, I will set my sights on a certain area and give it my best shot. Well, if I want to be a nurse I suppose I must study for it huh? I'll try to post again soon.
the more things change
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