April 4, 2007

There's Light At The End Of The Tunnel

April is here..wow. The spring has come on fast this year. I looked out my window today and noticed the trees were green. When did that happen? Did everything bloom overnight? I can't believe we're coming onto the end of the semester. My calendar says only 25 more days...can I last that long? The end of the semester is a grueling time. It's as though we're playing catch up and trying to cram everything in last minute. We have yet to take out 1st psych test, it's next Monday and I've been so busy I haven't been able to study yet. I hope this weekend is enough time for that because that's all the time I'll have. We had out 2nd psych clinical yesterday. This time I was in the low functioning end of the adult unit. I don't want to say that they were crazy b/c that wouldn't be appropriate, BUT some of those people has really lost their minds....literally. It was an energy sucking atmosphere. I almost found myself slipping into their dark hole right along with them. The crying, screaming, pacing, mumbling incoherant speeches, hearing voices, hallucinations, catatonic states.....what a bummer. I feel for those people. The mind is a mystery and to feel hopeless that you can't be helped has to be the shittiest feeling in the world. When you're physically ill you can most of the time be helped, but when you're mentally ill it's all about trial and error really. To be trapped in your mind and not be aware of reality must be a terrible way to live...ugh. I couldn't take it.

I have to have my last pre-req by this summer...humanities. Luckily I got signed up for an online Intro To Music course so it should be pretty cake. Apparently we listen to music and talk about it....it shouldn't be bad. No I won't get the summer completely off, but as long as I'm not taking a nursing course it's ok with me. Words of advice for those of you who haven't started nursing school....FINISH YOUR PRE-REQ'S FIRST!!!!!!!!! It will save you stress and heartache, it's extremly difficult to juggle both. I'm the testament to that. Damn. Micro is going ok, I'm making a high B. I don't put any effort in the class at all, I haven't the energy for it. I'm surprised I'm passing at all. I took today off from that class. I needed a break and need to catch up on my assignments. Hopefully I get it all caught up today so I can move onto the next thing tommorow. It's crunch time and you've got to do all you can to stay above water. I can't wait for summer. I'm finally seeing the light at the end of the tunnel and I am more than ready.

Until next time....


Anonymous said...


I love your blog!! I start nursing school in May (next month) and its really great to read about your experiences to prepare myself for the crazy road ahead! Its an accelerated 15 month program so I am a bit nervous!

Keep up the good blogs and good luck!!

~ Margaret

Anonymous said...

Oh and also - can I just say that you look fabulous and very young for having four kids?!?

Really, I hope I look half as pretty as you after one kid!


Soulshine ....RN to be (hopefully) said...

Thank you so much Margaret. That was very sweet of you. I am young for having 4 kids I suppose. I had my oldest at 19 and my twins at 21, so yeah...young ;-) I wish you all the luck with nursing school. It's challenging, but it's doable. If you want it badly enough you'll do great.