Sometimes all a woman really needs is coffee talk with a good friend. I love my friend Ravin for being my soul sista. She is as beautiful on the inside as she is on the outside. There is no one else who knows me better or can make me laugh till I cry :)
I'm just glad she made it through the accident and is still with us today.
March 30, 2009
Sometimes all a woman really needs is coffee talk with a good friend. I love my friend Ravin for being my soul sista. She is as beautiful on the inside as she is on the outside. There is no one else who knows me better or can make me laugh till I cry :)
March 29, 2009
So I just posted a very heavy blog about my grandmother and I need something light and airy...how about some American Idol? lol
Who are your favorites so far? Here is my top 3 favs so far:
1) Danny Gokey...I love a soulful voice and when Danny sings, you feel it. I love that about him. He is very genuine and as an artist he has his own sound as well. I also feel bad for him because his wife died only a couple of months before the AI auditions. :( As of right now, I think Danny will win it all.
Listen to this.....WOW! This voice was sent directly from Jesus.
2) Adam Lambert...his vocal range is insane!!!! He reminds me of Freddie Mercury (Queen) or Robert Plant (Led Zeppelin) and I thought this before Paula's response). I haven't heard a voice like that since the 80's hair bands. LOL When he hits those high notes effortlessly, I get chills. He's so original and current (and incredibly good looking) and he always puts his own spin on a song. That is what makes an artist, in my opinion. I don't care what the judges say, his rendition of Ring of Fire was smokin'. Bizarre or not, Adam's voice is WICKED! If you don't believe me, then skip to the 3:05 section of the video. HOLY HIGH NOTE!
3) Allison Iraheta...this girl is only 16 years old and she kicks some major ass! Sorry the vid quality isn't terrific. Fox is in cahoots with itunes now, so crap AI vids for us you tubers these days. She is the real deal. I love her! GAH!
On an ending note, I really love Kris Allen's folksy, indie style. He reminds me of Jason Mraz a lil bit. I also really think the Megan girl with the tattoo sleeve is cool. Her voice is Adele made over, but she's gorgeous! She needs to step it up though. Her song choices have sucked!
So those are my thoughts...what are yours???
March 28, 2009
My grandfather's funeral was today. My heart broke to see my grandmother cry. She never cries, nor complains, nor ever wants anyone to worry about her, but I do. She said something about not wanting to be alone in the house (my grandfather died there), so my twins are staying with her for a few days since they are on spring break. Sigh. I just worry about her. I love her so much and only hope that she is now able to really live her life to the fullest.
I was thinking today and I realized that in 40 years she has never been loved by a man. This thought made me cry at the upsetting realization. I don't think he ever said anything loving toward her. Truly. :( My grandfather who passed is my step-grandfather, Luchen. My 'real' grandad, Herman, died before I was even born and was the love of my grandmother's life. She has told me so many stories of their rendevous, their romantic moments and everything that she was missing in her current life. The thought of her not being appreciated for over 40 YEARS tears me up inside. UGH! My biological grandfather died while my grandmother was pregnant with her fourth child, and back in the day a woman needed a man to survive, so she found one. Luchen was charming, good-looking and I guess wanting a wife. So she married him and the story goes.... I see so much of her in me sometimes.
Moving on...My grandmother is so wonderful and everyone who came to the funeral, sadly, just came for her benefit. I only want the best for her and for her to find true happiness. Can you imagine....40 years??? I am so sad for her and her situation. She said she isn't sure what she is feeling right now. I'm sure it's a mixture of relief and sadness for the life she has always known. Her face looked so weary. If only I could take it from her and give her her peace.....
My grandmother is my biggest inspiration. Having been a nurse for over 50 years, I learned so much from her and her compassionate nature. I remember when I decided to go to nursing school, the first person I called was her. When I graduated, the only reaction I really cared about was my boys and hers. I always want her approval and she has always given it to me. She loves me unconditionally. She is my soul mate. She makes me laugh all the time with her hilarious stories and funny anecdotes. We understand each other, despite the age gap. If I had met her when she was young I am certain we would have been best friends. Heck, she is my best friend. I offered for her to come live with me, of course, she declined. She is much too in dependant and a free spirit. I love her spontaneity and wisdom. As I said, she inspires me and I admire her so very much. I could go on and on and on about her. Bottom line....I love her with all of my heart. I love her as much as I have ever loved anyone. Aside from my kids and husband, she is the most important person in my life. OK, I'm getting incredibly mushy and sentimental now.
Here is a photo of my and my mamaw today after the funeral. Isn't she the cutest? She had changed into her 'after school clothes' and was taking a million phone calls. She cracked me up because there was a time where she just handed me the phone to listen to someone gab away. LOL Even in the worst of times, she can always procure a smile for others, that is what makes her so amazing to me. She is a selfless soul and If I could only be a fraction of who she is, then I would be happy with that. :-)
March 27, 2009
I have a question and really need responses. Can you view the entire layout of my blog template, meaning to you see the pink background and the elements on the sides of my blog such as the stethescope and such? I would really like responses bc I am creating a project and need to know if this size is a good size. I have a larger computer screen and wasn't really aware until recently that what I see, others may not. Feedback!
By the way, resolution, pixels etc gives me a stress headache. :/
Lovingly Posted By Christy at 2:37 PM
I finally finished my nursing orientation yesterday. I know it had only lasted a few weeks, but it seemed like months. I think I have ADD or something because as of late, I have had a hard time sitting still and listening to people talk. Maybe it's nursing school flashbacks, I don't know, but sometimes I get so restless I just want to jump out of my seat and shout "I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!" But I didn't. ;)
As you may know, my grandfather passed away Wednesday. He had recently been diagnosed with lung cancer and hospice had taken over his care. It is always sad when someone dies, but I am relieved for my grandmother who won't bare the burden of stress and worry anymore. She is getting old and I was worried that his illness would age her even more and possibly bring down her own health, which has been superb thus far, thankfully.
My grandfather's passing is bittersweet for my family. It is never good to speak ill of the deceased, however, I will say that he was not nice a nice man to my grandmother. Putting it bluntly, he berated her, demeaned her and caused her grief for 40 plus years. Every day of her life. She never got a moments peace with the man. My grandmother is the closest thing I know to a saint, so this was very hard for everyone to endure. She is the sweetest, most thoughtful, kindest, funniest, selfless person I have ever known! She means so much to me and I love her fiercely, as does everyone who knows her. I have had to give my grandfather a rightful set down many times because of his treatment to my mamaw, thankfully he listened to me. ;) For some reason, he liked me and he didn't like many people. Probably because I was one of the only grandchildren that tolerated him, as bad as that sounds. As I said...he was hateful, but despite all of that, he did have some good qualities.
My grandpa was very close to my twins and loved all of the grandchildren a lot. If anything, he was a good grandpa. I will give him credit for that. Also, he always greeted us with a smile. I'll never forget that after we'd visited for hours and were ready to leave, he would always say "What's your hurry?" lol. Despite all of his faults, I did have a soft spot for him because of how much he loved my boys and because of that I will forgive him for all he has done and let him rest in peace. I always appreciated his treatment to the boys, no one could ever say he didn't love them. He did everything for them.
When I visited him the other day, he was slightly coherent. He laid in his bedroom, which was turned into a hospital room. He was saying something to me and I could barely understand him, so I leaned down to hear him better and he hugged my neck and gave me kisses on my cheek, which he always did. He told me of a dream he had and said that he was flying around in the sky. That gave me a few chills up my spine. I helped my grandmother change him because in the last month he had become incontinent. His body was frail, he could barely move, barely speak, yet he still complained. Same old papaw :) I also got him to take his medication because he wouldn't take any for my grandmother. I just held them up to his mouth and said "Open up and take these!". LOL And so he did, then he smiled and winked at me. As always, he was playing games and being facetious, right up until the end. Stubborn old coot! :)
He kept talking to me and talking to my boys. He always called my twins his 'little farm boys" and referred to them this way again. I would never let anyone see, but my eyes did water and I did get a little choked up. It's really difficult because I have watched him hurt my grandmother time after time my whole life, yet he is still my 'papaw', even if he was meaner than a snake. If I ever needed him he was always there, and especially for my twins. They were his favorite and he treated them like gold. As we said goodbye, he kissed me and I told him I loved him, which I rarely did. It was hard finding tender feelings for someone who was often so cruel, but I managed it and I actually meant it too. I knew when I left it would be the last time I would see him. I looked at him lying in the bed and he looked so small and much less threatening than he'd ever looked. I said 'bye papaw' and waved and he waved back. It was at that moment, that I had forgiven him for everything he'd ever done to her. I have always said I would never forgive him, for right up until the very end, even as she was caring for his sick body, he would curse her, but I can't hold on to that anymore. If she can forgive him, then so can I. She told me that no matter what he did or said to her she would not stoop to that level and she would do what God would expect of her. Like I said, she is a saint. She has definitely earned her wings.
Telling my boys the news was a difficult conversation to have. I don't think it will set in until they see him in the funeral home. I am dreading it. I hate to see them hurt. He was their papaw, the only one they have ever known. My grandmother told me this morning he requested my twins picture be buried with him. I was not surprised my this. People always laughed because he had an old green and white cap that he would wear with their photo printed on it. It looked ridiculous, but he was so proud of them. :) The thought of him wanting Christian and Colton's photo in his casket had me choked up again. They are going to miss him very much and I must admit, it definitely won't be the same without him around. He was never boring, that's for sure. ;)
I'll always remember him recounting old war stories, telling funny jokes, being silly and sticking his false teeth out to make the little ones laugh, but more often cry with fear. LOL However awful he sometimes was, he was still my papaw and I am going to miss him sitting in his chair on the front porch awaiting our visits. All that being said....I forgive you Papaw. The boys will miss you and never forget you. May you rest in peace.
March 25, 2009
My grandpa passed away today at 1:10pm. We knew it would be soon. I'm trying to figure out how to tell the kids this news. :(
R.I.P. Papaw. You will not be forgotten.
March 24, 2009
I have finally dicovered how to create blinkies (animations), after much searching and cursing photoshop for being too smart for me. Anyhow, check out the ones I made to the right -------------> and also at the bottom of my page. Now that I understand how they're done they're very easy to do. If anyone of my blogger friends would like one, just let me know and I'll make it to your specifications. :)
Who is the sexiest man alive? Why, Robert Pattinson, that's who! Look at those eyes, so smoldering and sensual. Dayum!!! Who knew Cedric Diggory could be so, so...HOT?!!!! Have you ever seen a man more beautiful? Sighhhhhhh. AND he is a musician to boot! Robert, you can nibble on my neck any time. ;) Excuse me for a moment while I gather my composure. In the meantime, scroll down and get your eyes full of a gorgeous piece of man! A-Hem. :-) SWOON!
(Sorry, I had a girly moment.)
Listen to Rob sing a beautiful little tune:
March 23, 2009
Tiffany tagged me and guess what? You're tagged too! Bwahahaha!
1)Post a picture of your stethescope:
Here's the big bad daddy himself. The Littman Cardiology III stethescope in plum and I love the color. (Bought with scholarship money, therefore I didn't have much sticker shock.)
2) Tell what you love about it:
I love this steth because I am quite deaf sometimes. I have had the lightweight & classic II Littmans, but needed better acoustics. I can hear the rush of the blood moving in and out of the chambers and the lung sounds are awesome with this one. Loud. I also love that it doesn't slip off my neck, hang down my back, slap me in the face while jogging down the hall, or hit a pt when I bend over. All of these things have happned with my lighter steths. It got annoying.
3) Tell what you hate about it:
It's HEAVY! I began to notice I was having neck pains at work, I thought it was due to stress, until I discovered it was my stethescope! So I only wear it now when I'm doing assessments. Otherwise I keep it in my pocket (if I have one) :)
4) Does it have a name?:
His name is Pain-In-The-Neck, but I can't part with him. Funny enough, I am quite attatched to this one.
Hello, my name is Christy and I am addicted to scrapbooking. (Blush)
Forgive me folks for the background confusion. I have recently discovered the art of creating and making my own blogger backgrounds. Weeeeeeee! HTML sucks, but I have figured it out with the 2 and 3 column backgrounds (which was hard to find) and am having a grand ole time making my own for a change!!!! If you want one, just ask. Now that I know how, it takes only a few creative minutes of my time. :) Thanks to http://www.thecutestblogontheblock.com/blog-secrets for the great tips & tricks. I want to credit www.afterfivedesigns.com for the beautiful papers and elements I am using to make these backgrounds. I will post a link on my blog for them. Their designs are awesome and creative. I did pay for them, because they're worth the small amount of money, but once you buy them you can design anything and make it your own forever and ever. :)
This digital scrapbooking is as easy as pie, well, once you learn how. You can dowload freebies (I have links) all over the internet, save them to your computer, open any image editing software program (I use photoshop cs4) and go to town, arranging, mixing and editing your elements to create your own unique scrapbook pages or backgrounds.
So, again, forgive me if everytime you visit you think you've been misdirected. I'm just playing around, since I'm skipping class and all. He he.
I've got the 'I overslept because my son was in the hospital so I stayed up late and took a benadryl for allergies and didn't hear the alarm' blues.
(Atleast it wasn't for work and only for a class, which I have 30 days to complete.)
He's ok, just a raging ear infection. All lab work was good. Thank God. I was worried.
On another note, I think I'm developing shampoo allergies. I've recently had a case of major itchy scalp, which I've never had before, nor have I had dandruff. It got so bad, I wondered if I was going crazy. I even went so far as to ask my husband to check my hair for lice. LOL So I began correlating these reactions with shampoo use, particularly Herbal Essences. I have used these products before, but not this particular kind. Hmmm. I'll let ya know if it goes away. So far, so good.
March 22, 2009
You know those days where you wake up feeling completely rejuvinated and refreshed? It's as if you'd slept a hundred hours and when your feet hit the floor, you feel ready to seize the day! Well, today is not one of those days.
March 21, 2009
This video makes me cry. You may or may have not heard the story about Christian the lion. He was raised by 2 men and set back into the wild. They wanted to go back and see him but were told he wouldn't remember them. One year later, they return and reunite. Watch the video to see what happens.
March 20, 2009
Haven't you ever dreamt of money raining down on you from the sky? Well, it did in San Diego! Check this out to watch the people grab it all up! (and p.s. listen to the big ole lie the news reporter tells at the end. LOL)
How ironic is it that President Obama spent the day with the CA Governor and his wife Maria Shriver that he would make a foolhardy joke about the Special Olympics? Was he aware that Maria's mother, Eunice Kennedy Shriver, founded the Special Olympics? Whoops! At least he's doing damage control. I understand how this can upset many people and I'm quite certain it wasn't meant to cause harm. BUT it's definitely not something you say on Jay Leno in front of millions of people! I think you can tell he immediately realized what he said was wrong because he stumbled a little afterward. Tsk, tsk Obama!
I, however, laughed when I heard the joke, because, hey it was funny. Not funny in the, let's make fun of people way, but that he was genuinely making fun of himself way. Maybe if he used different terminology. Hmm. I also cringed because I thought about the way it would be handled in the press. When you're under the microscope Prez, you just can't blurt out everything you think, even if it is a little funny. ;)
Click here if you want to watch:
March 19, 2009
All this week I have been in 'new nurse' orientation (it's for all the new nurses at my hospital). I cannot tell you how pleased I am with this orientation. They have covered everything, and I mean EVERYTHING! From charting, to mock codes (LOVE!), to IV insertion, wound vacs, chest tubes...all of it. Most everything is different from what I am use to, but the thing I like so much about this hospital is that they prepare you. We have had to check off on every skill and I feel like I'm in nursing school all over again. Flashbacks...AHHH! However, I think it's a very good thing because it prepares you and allows you to learn their equipment with a hands on approach. At my last orientation, I was basically thrown in the pond and was told to swim. Not the best way to learn, I might add, but it did increase the shock value. So props for entertainment!
I am so very impressed with my new hospital that I feel it's kind of restored my passion for nursing again. Working night shift sucked the life right out of me, but I'm ready to hit the floor and do something worthwhile and rewarding again. It feels so good to leave for work at dawn and get home when the sun is still shining. Sometimes I just smile for no reason, because I feel like a human again.
Some of the many benefits at my new hospital include: free health club membership for all employees and free health screenings. 401k for everyone (my last job they only had a 403b...generic!), options of 12, 8 or 4 hour shifts, much cheaper insurance packages, free drinks from the cafeteria (hey, you can't knock the free drinks. Especially when it includes hot chocolate), and much more that I can't think of past the free beverages... lol.
Seriously though, this place just feels much more nurse oriented. They have ameneties that my other job would have laughed at such as...insulin pens. Wow, what a concept. Anyhow, I am getting off track. Just wanted to say how excited I am to be a nurse and how proud I am that this hospital really recognizes nurses and nursing as a profession. They support you one hundred percent to further your career and go as high as your tired legs will take you. It's inspiring to hear the nurses come in and educate us with their overflowing experience and how they began just like me and now, they're the head of trauma, ICU or nursing ed. It's just cool.
There are two campuses to this particular hospital and I will be at the brand new one. It's only three years old and is SCHWEET! It looks like a hotel inside. The rooms are enormous! There are places to chart all over the place called 'pods' so you don't have to sit and chart in the busy station areas. They have thought of everything. Every linen, med, paperwork, chart, etc is all right outside each pt's room, so it's very convenient and saves you a lot of time running around. The assistants do a lot for you there that I am not accustomed to...foleys, chemstrips, EKG's etc. Also, the pharmacy will actually crush your meds for you if you need it! GASP! I'm really excited about that small task. If you could have only seen me with the medieval 100lb pill crusher...oy! Crushing meds can take so much time out of your day, if you don't believe me, try crushing a potassium pill...it's a good 15 minute job. Wink. And the ICU's! I've ever heard of so many ICU departments. Cardiovascular ICU, Med Surg ICU (which is equivelant to my old med surg floor), pediatric ICU, Neonatal ICU, Renal ICU...I mean, I'm overwhelmed by that completely. We only had one...(ONE!!!) ICU and my 'old' (I keep saying that) hospital had a lot more beds. It's just bizarre, but very cool.
Oh they also have a new, state of the art robot that assists in surgerys. Scary right? I'm not sure what the robot does, but it's pretty cool nonetheless. Here are some actual photos from my new place of employment :)
Tomorrow is my last day of new nurse, then I have 2 computer classes next week. After all that is complete I will start orienting on my units. Ugh, I said unit'S'. I only get three days per unit. Let's pray I don't fall flat on my face. ;-)
March 18, 2009
I am really tired. This getting up super early business is getting to me.
March 17, 2009
Talyor Swift is one of the few people I think young girls should actually look up to in 'Hollywood'. Not only is she a great songwriter, musician and as cute as a button, BUT she also makes these super cute videos for her fans. Check out one of the many below:
March 15, 2009
Things that are currently annoying me:
-The cat. He puked huge fur balls on my brand new satin comforter and when I washed it, for immediate stain relief, it ruined it. One more time and I'm putting an ad in the paper. (I never even wanted this cat)Grr.
- Lindsay Lohan. Who cares about her? It's evident that she is a complete idiot. Who else would throw their career away so blatantly? Ugh. If I see her orange face one more time...
- Heartburn. I have the WORST heartburn of my life. It's actually painful, as in...OUCH! It will not go away. Maybe I have an ulcer.
- The weather. How do you go from 80 degrees to 40 degrees in one day? Not to mention earthquakes, wind storms and ice storms all in a few months. I thought I lived in the midwest?!
- Sundays. Sunday is just a reminder that Monday is near. I much prefer Fridays, because it's a day of infinite possibilities.
- Money. There is never enough to go around.
- Unfinished projects. Never put something off until tomorrow what can be done today, OR ELSE IT WILL NEVER GET FINISHED! (A-hem! Painting)
1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? No.
2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? yesterday.
3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR OWN HANDWRITING? Ever since I've become a nurse my handwriting has went downhill. I'm too busy to make sure it's neat and frankly don't care anymore.
4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? I don't like lunch meat.
5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS? Yes, 4.
6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? Yea, I think I'm a pretty good friend.
7. DO YOU USE SARCASM? I'm too sarcastic for my own good at times.
8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS? Yes.
9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP? No, I have no desire to scare the crap out of myself.
10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL? Oh's.
11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF? Not normally
13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM? Vanilla bean, Bryers AND Pistaccio.
14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE? Eyes.
15. RED OR PINK? Pink.
16. WHAT IS YOUR LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF? I over analyze, worry too much and have odd sleeping patterns.
17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST? right now, my friend Ravin.
18. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO COMPLETE THIS LIST? if they want to.
19. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING? my pants are turqouise and pink pj pants with hot chocolate (mugs) all over them. Ha. No shoes.
21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? the sound of my space heater warming my feet.
22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? periwinkle blue
23. FAVORITE SMELLS? Lilacs, the moment right before it rains, fresh laundry and linens, swimming pools, a wood fire and men's cologne.
24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? my grandmother.
26. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH? Football.
27. HAIR COLOR? it's a mix between brown and blonde...it's an odd color, I don't really like it.
28. EYE COLOR? Brown with flecks of gold.
29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? Nope.
30. FAVORITE FOOD? Mexican, but I can always eat a good steak.
31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS? Happy endings.
32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? The Wrestler...you surprised? Ha!
33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? a white v neck t-shirt
34. SUMMER OR WINTER? summer.
35. HUGS OR KISSES? Hugs.
37. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND? who knows.
38. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND? who knows.
39. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW? I'm trying to get through Georgette Heyer's Frderica, but have been distracted.
40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? Adelphia HIgh speed internet. Ugly.
41. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT? I don't think I watched tv last night.
42. FAVORITE SOUND(S)? my boy's laughter, ocean waves, the rain (I love rain), a fire crackling...
43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES? Beatles.
44. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME? Hmmm....Florida or CT. Not sure which is further and I'm too lazy to look.
45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT? hmm....not really.
46. WHERE WERE U BORN? born and raised on the same place I am now.
47. WHOSE ANSWERS ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING BACK? Anyone who will take the time to write.
48. WHERE DID YOU MEET YOUR SPOUSE? on the internet, then 6 months later...on a date.
49. WHERE IS HOME? wherever my heart is.
50. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU TELL YOUR YOUNGER SELF? stop being so stupid, be selective, never settle for less and stop worrying so much!
March 14, 2009
I use to watch Jon and Kate plus 8 show on TLC, but lately Kate's controlling behavior has completely turned me off so I stopped watching.
It's hard to watch her constantly berate, correct and demoralize her husband on the show. Has anyone else noticed this or is it just me? Well, apparently not. I recently stumbled across this headline: http://www.realitytvmagazine.com/blog/2009/03/06/jon-kate-plus-8-marriage-troubles/ and after doing some online nosing around, have discovered that Kate Gosselin is the center of a lot of controversy of late surrounding her behavior and whether or not they are exploiting their children for money.
It seems that Kate has pushed some buttons, and not only amongst fans of the show, but family as well: http://evilbeetgossip.film.com/2008/08/23/jon-and-kate-plus-eight-gets-nasty-aunt-jodi-tells-her-side/
What makes her so much different than that Nadia woman? The fact that they are married? I'm not saying she's is or is not the same, but aren't they exploiting their children for money? The rumors are that Kate has a private chef, cleaning ladies, housekeepers and several nannies that help her. Much of this isn't shown on the show because it's supposed to be following a real family going through real day to day life. How is it real when there are cameras around all the time? The Gosselins recently moved into a MUCH bigger home, courtesy of their money from TLC. They have taken numerous trips (all supplied by TLC), speaking engagements, talk shows, book signings, Jon's free hair plugs, Kate's free plastic surgery etc. Check out this revealing blog on J&K's real lives: http://gosselinswithoutpity.blogspot.com/
Some of this just makes me wonder...? And I can't help it, she comes across as so self-righteous. "My family only eats organic food!" and blah, blah, blah. I would feed my family a total organic diet too if a tv show paid me enough money to do so. Something about her just annyos me. Who's with me? lol
March 12, 2009
I wonder... if I'm loved more than the internet and computer and other fake nonsense
I wonder...if I am worth enough to make someone want to do and be better
I wonder...if things will ever change
I wonder...if anyone appreciates me
I wonder...why I frown more than I smile lately
I wonder...why it has to be so difficult
I wonder...why I never feel validated
I wonder...why I'm always wondering all of these things......
This season will be a fun one I think. I always fast forward through the first few weeks and love to watch the top 12 (or 13 this season) start singing. So far, I'm loving Danny Gokey and Adam whatshisface with the emo black hair??? Oh, and I also like the Jason Mraz-ish cute boy that sang with the guitar. He he. (I'll learn the names better once they sing more). Although Adam is a lil (A LOT) flamboyant, when he hits those 80's rock band high notes.... watch out! WOAH!
In honor of a new season of AI, and just because I wanted to, I you-tubed my fav AI performances (I remember them all so well). I think these performances stand out and alone above the rest!!!! I'd like to know YOURS as well! :-)
1) Bo Bice: In a Dream (this song gives me cold chills everytime I hear it and he will forever be my favorite contestant of all time). He is so real and down to earth. I love Bo, his voice, his personality, his grace and gratefulness. Acapella...simply beautiful and mesmorizing. This is the real deal folks.
2) Carrie Underwood: Alone If this song doesn't show how talented Carrie is, then I don't know what does. I remember hearing this and thinking...DAYUM that girl has got some major pipes!!!!! She made everyone on the show, besides Bo Bice, look like ameteurs. How she was not discovered before AI is a mystery. I am glad I got to watch her evolve on this show.
3)David Cook: The World I Know: I cried when I heard him sing this, I know, I'm so sappy. I love Collective Soul and the fact that he sang this as his final performance....sigh. He can make any song completely original. I'm so glad he sang this and am proud of him for it. He's a real talent. I was over the moon when he won. He truly deserved it. David Cook has so much heart and soul. I love him.
4) David Archuleta: Heaven I heard this song in my sleep and it woke me up...literally. (See long ago post). I was thinking who the heck was that?!!! I think this song is perfect for him because he sings like an angel. He is so precious, adorable and has a God given talent. I cannot wait to hear more from him, forever and ever and ever. His voice soothes my soul and this performance brought tears to me eyes, and apparently I'm not the only one...
5) Chris Daughtry: Hemorrhage First of all, I L-O-V-E Fuel and he did this song some major justice and you could feel his heart in the song. When I heard Chris sing this song I thought...well, there's your winner right there! He stood out against the crowd foshizzle!
6) Bo Bice: Whipping Post The Allman Brothers is one of my all time favorite bands (SERIOUSLY) and when I heard Bo would be singing one of my all time favorite songs, Whipping Post, I was like hell yeah!!!!!!!!! There is nearly not enough blues on AI. He gave his whole self to this performance and I have watched it probably a hundred times. Bo never strayed from who he was for a tv show and that is what I loved so much about him. He's so authentic. He owned that stage from day one! Go Bo!
7) Jennifer Hudson: Circle of Life Wow, what a powerful voice. I loved her from the beginning and couldn't believe she was elimated so soon. I knew she had something special and if you have seen Dream Girls then you know what I mean. Hello, this woman is a major vocailist. There is no denying it.
8) Bo Bice: For the Love of Money OK, this is one of the BEST performaces I've ever seen on AI, EVER! I would have put it higher, but I didn't want anyone to think I was a Bo Bice stalker! (I am) This guys is a seasoned performer and he proves it with this song. YOU MUST WATCH THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
9) Carrie Underwood: Making Love Out of Nothing At All Seriously? Come on! This chick could sing the yellow pages. She sings her HEART out! Wow.
10) Chris Daughtry: I Walk the Line OMG, this blew me away. This guy is so talented and this song is so f'n amazing! (Also see his interpretation of Have you ever really loved a woman......so sexy. Wooo!)
11) David Archuleta: Imagine David's voice is an instrument, there's no denying it. If anyone says this kid doesn't have talent then they're just deaf. He has such a beautiful and eloquent voice. I wish really good things for him. If only I could sing like that! lol
There are many more..........
WHat are your favs?
March 11, 2009
This may not be a big deal and I'm sure no one cares, but....when I woke up this morning I went for my coffee and when I went to take a drink I noticed that my wedding ring wasn't on my hand! I never, ever, ever take my wedding ring off so I panicked. I was wondering..wtf?! I rushed upstairs to ask my husband if he took it off as a joke, he said no (believably) and I started to really freak out inside. OMG where is it, why was it gone etc. My ring fits snugly and would never fall off...ever. Anyhow, I went to my bed and started looking there and it was lying in the middle of my bed between the sheets. How freakin' odd! I will never know how it got there or why it wasn't on my finger. Sorry this is such a silly post but it has bothered me all day. I am completely stumped and a little weirded out. So odd!
I went to have lunch with Aidan today at school and it was nice. He's so stinking cute scooting his tray down the line and making sure to place his napkin under his milk. He he. My little boy is just growing up too fast. :( I would go have lunch with my other boys but then that would just be way to "embarassing" so I don't. My older boys are weird at times. They don't often allow me to take their picture and when they do they get all weird about it. So yes, I do have 3 other children and they're all alive...I promise!
After lunch we had a parent-teacher conference about whether or not Aidan will move onto first grade. I'm pretty torn about this. He has missed a lot of school but his teacher's concerns aren't with his academics as much as it is with his lack of confidence, she says. I know that he isn't his most vibrant self in class, at home he's a little jabber jaws, but I suppopse all kids are like that at times. I wonder what the right thing to do is and am not sure what to do at the moment. I hate to have him repeat because of his age. He will be 7 next January and would still be in kindergarten. Plus, academically he's doing well and not having many problems. Her reasons seemed a little funny to me. Yes, he does need more confidence, but he's just not a loud kid who is all over other kids wrestling or whatever small kids do. He's an observer and very smart. I'd hate to hold him back. We have some decisions to make.
Onto other news...I've been painting and doing some redecorating at home. I moved here exactly two weeks before I started nursing school and during those 2 years I did nothing to the house. I'm making up for lost time. :) Here are some photos.
Living Room Before:
Living Room After:
March 10, 2009
So today started the flurry of new hospital orientation. Wow...I was bored out of my mind. I must have ADD because by noon I was so restless that people probably thought I had ants in my pants. The only thing that kept me from springing from my seat was that everytime the clock struck on the hour I heard "KA-CHING" in my ears. So, I guess it's not too bad to sit and listen to people ramble on and on and on and get paid for it. It was the easiest money I've ever made.
Friday I begin 'new nurse' orientation and even though I don't want to sit through that either, atleast it's a sugbject I'm interested in. Ha. Except the universal things (lifting, medication rights, etc) that I just oriented on not very long ago. Sigh. Ah well.
So far, I have a good impression of the hospital. The hospital is large and has 2 campuses. The one I will be working at is only a few years old and I'm excited to see the units and how they differ from the older hospitals. I remember at my 'old' hospital that sometimes we actually had to move the patient's bed, while they were in it, to allow wheelchair access to the bathroom. Now, forgive me if I'm wrong, but who was the genius who would put walls with ANGLES in a damn hospital room? Ridiculousness.
Anywho, this blog is boring. Yawn. Sorry for putting you all to sleep. OH and although I seem like I am complaining (I am), I'm really excited at the same time. I just want to get to the good stuff...I miss my patients. :(
March 9, 2009
My son, Aidan, who is 6 cracks me up. We told him a week ago that on Wednesday we were going to eat lunch with him and he's sooooo scared we'll forget. He told me to put it in my brain so I'll remember. We told him we wouldn't forget and he said we had to write ourselves a note. (LOL) So we laughed, beacuse he's this tiny, little boy who has these huge ideas and a big imagination. It's just funny. THEN he gets mad because we're laughing and we explained it was because he was funny and cute in which he replies... "Don't laugh at me because you think I'm funny or cute, because it makes me shy and I may cry." (Laugh more) "Calm down! I'm SEWEEUS!"
Tomorrow: start orientation finally! BUT I don't want to...I am having too much fun having no job. Wah. ;)
March 8, 2009
I wasn't going to talk about this but....WTF is Rhianna thinking getting back together with Chris Brown? What she is doing is typical of a person who get's abused...they go back possibly thinking it was their fault. They think they can fix 'them'. After hearing of the even that took place that night and seeing her face, then him in Miami on JET SKIS...disgusting. He is not going to change Rhianna and guess what? He will hit you again. We may not know about it, but it will happen.
Did you read the police report? He hit her over the head multiple times while she shielded her face and even put her in a headlock and she almost passed out! He could have killed her. Imagine how many people die by accident. So many women (and men) are abused and the intent wasn't to kill but they ended up dying. And furthermore, why isn't her camp, family, friends etc doing anything to stop this? Who is there to tell her to stay away from him, atleast until he gets the proper help he needs and some counceling for herself? Sigh. Is she blind?????
She has asked that the judge doesn't make him stay away from her. I hope the judge doesn't listen. I hope he sentences him to jail time to teach these punks that they can't beat the shit out of a woman and get away with it. What kind of lesson are they sending??? GRRR..this pisses me off! I am having Bobby and Whitney flashbacks...scary.
Anyhow, I hope she wises up and gets the hell away from him, but I doubt it.
March 7, 2009
March 6, 2009
I wrote a my review of The Wrestler this morning, but it keeps nagging at me that it doesn't even touch how I felt about the movie. Grrr. Forgive me for my word vomit, but that movie was SPECTACULAR. I cannot even describe how honest it was and how it made me feel. It's been on my mind all day. I have said this about other movies, how they stick with you, but this one is different. I don't think I realized how great it was until it was over and it resonated in my mind. Wow. I just sat there and thought about it for a long while. I am really moved and blown away. The director is a genius. I'm so touched by Randy's life, his vulnerability and his humaness. The sights, sounds, music, direction, camera angles...I love it all. And Bruce Springsteen sealing the end with that beautiful song....priceless. It's like having one last sumptuous bite before you're too full. Prepare with tissues.
I've seen Milk, it was a good movie, the message is great, story is great, however... Mickey Rourke should have won that Oscar. Sean Penn is a great actor, but this performance from Mickey was a once in a lifetime performance, ya know? Now having seen it, I'm really feeling bad for the guy. He put his whole heart in that role and bared his soul for all of us, it is really something special. How he did not win, I don't know.
Ok, I guess I've said my piece, although it doesn't seem like enough and I'm not really sure why I care so much, but I just really love it I guess.
I watched the Wrestler last night and wanted to talk about it while it's fresh on my mind. First of all, the movie is GREAT, maybe one of the best I've EVER seen. It's so gripping, tender, real, emotional, sad...I can't say enough about it. I totally see why Mickey Rourke was nominated for an Academy Award. His performance didn't feel like a performance at all, but rather the audience peeking in on his life and watching. Incredible.
The movie feels like an Indie film from the jump. It's shot in way that it feels like a documentary, rather than a scripted movie and that's what sets the movie apart. It's an intimate tale of a man who seems to be clinging on to the only thing he knows...wrestling. However, this isn't a movie about wrestling, it's about someone who's identity and place in the world is challenged and how he copes with it.
Randy, The Ram, has been a wrestler his whole life. We meet him at a time when he is broken, washed up and is wrestling for a small amount of money in small, local arenas. We watch Randy go from being remembered and admired in the arena, to sleeping in his van some nights because he can't pay for the rent on his trailer. He goes from wrestling by night and working at a deli in the daytime. He is a lonely man who seeks the friendship of a stripper, played by Marissa Tomei, who also seems to be putting on a facade for the world.
I was worried when I'd heard about the movie that the stripper portion would be cheesy. Not that it isn't already. Anyone remember Showgirls? Ugh. Her performance, which was also nomintaed, was anything but sterotypical. Yes, she's trying to make her way taking off her clothes, but we find she also has trouble balancing her "stage" identity and her real one. She isn't the young beauty she once was and she is also up against, younger competition. You can't help but feel a sense of sadness that Randy is essentially buying her attentions and quite possibly mistakes it for something real.
Evan Rachel Wood plays Randy's daughter who he has neglected since a young age. He wants a relationship with her, but is it too little too late? Your heart can't help but break for this man, even though he chose his life, you see how alone in the world he is and you root for him. Ugh.
I won't spoil the movie, but I have to tell you that I LOVED it. The subtle parallels between the characters lives is refreshing and something I didn't really pick up on until it was over. It isn't cookie cutter and all doesn't go as one might imagine. I love the direction and cinematography, it provides a different level of perspective than we're use to seeing. I have to admit, Mickey Rourke's face sometimes scares me with all of the plastic surgery he's had done, but the role fit him perfectly. Marissa's performance was also great. She could have went very over the top with her character, but keeps it simple, yet complex and that is what I loved about it. It's the best movie I've seen in a very long time. Oh and the ending...sigh. I won't give it away, but you MUST, MUST, MUST, MUST, MUST, MUST, MUST see it! It's soooo very good. You will never forget it.
oh and p.s. the Bruce Springsteen song doesn't play until the credits, but it's also stellar. ;) Check out the song and scenes here:
I've been digital scrapbooking for a while now. It's another one of my hobbies that is all consuming. Come to think of it....I have too many all consuming hobbies...reading, photography, scrapbooking, television....hmm. I think I should quit working altogether so I have time to pursue all my interests full on. What do you think? Professional hobby woman? If only.
Back to my point...it's really a HUGE interest of mine and I've been learning to create my own pages etc so I can design and possibly sell my own kits. Yes, it's a big, COLOSSAL undertaking, but something I'm commited to. It may take forever though because I have discovered that I may have ADHD. I will start something and switch gears and go back. I have trouble focusing. I'm creatively overwhelmed. Hmmf! Anyhow, the website is in the works and I'm going to great pains to perfect it. It's annoying. I hate being a perfectionist. :/
Check out this awesome place to completely customize your webpage or blog at www.squarespace.com ....it's really cool and allows your creativity to flow.
March 4, 2009
Sending warm, loving thoughts to a friend....you know who you are. :) Keep your chin up.