Because I can't really work until I have my license, I have had a lot of time off and I'm enjoying it immensely. I've redocorated the house, cleaned out closets, cooked dinners (shocker!), and gotten to spend lots of time with my kids. I may even take in a new book. Can you imagine?! I feel like a regular ole housewife. Who knew domesticity was my bag? 
Have I gotten my new license yet, you ask? Still waiting...
I cannot work as a nurse in this particular state until I have my license and I'm getting impatient. Just like the week of my NCLEX exam, I am checking the board's website obsessively to see "active" written next to my name. This is a flash-back I do not want to be having. The Horror!
I woke up this morning to some realizations. I think God was speaking to me in my dreams, or through the television, because the religion channel was mysteriously on. Ha. (Scratching my head) It's amazing the amount of guilt these people can evoke from you, isn't it? According to this lady I have a lot of work to do. I'd better get crackin'.
Well, I've been all wrong. My judge of character has failed me yet again. I have a tendancy to believe in people and to trust what they tell me. All I have learned from this is that I cannot trust anyone and that is a lonely feeling. I'm not sure what to believe or think anymore. I guess I'm a fool.
Why is it that they grow up so fast? Every day I am thankful that my son is able to grow and remain healthy, at the same time I wish he would always stay my little boy...so sweet, loving, innocent, funny, naive, imaginative, caring, thoughtful, endearing and full of wonder. One day, he too will roll his eyes at me, slam the door because he's angry and call me names behind my back. One day, he too will think I'm a rotten mother who never let's him do anything he wants. He will be upset with me for getting grounded from the phone and for making him do household chores and I wouldn't trade it for the world.
Every day I cherish this time in his life. A time when he is young and impressionable. Childhood slips away so quickly and so many parents miss the little things, but not I. I watch him play with the bubbles in his bath and make funny shapes. I admire his ingenuity when building a tower made of play-doh. I write down the funny things he says that he doesn't yet know are funny. When he smiles, I smile inside and sometimes my heart feels full to bursting. I will try and remember every moment of his childhood, like I did with my other boys because those days can never be replaced. For now, I am glad he still is my baby. Small enough to still hold, yet big enough to have a conversation with.
I am so grateful to be a witness to his life and to watch him unfold into a kind human being. I am so blessed to be the mother to these 4 wonderful boys and I am so grateful that I am able to say that Aidan is healthy and full of life. SO many parents lose their children to cancer and he is still fighting. He actually takes his medicine on his own now. He knows everyday he takes the same pill and on Thursdays he takes 6. It's supervised of course, but somewhere inside of him, lying under his childish demeanor, he feels the weight of his illness and the importance of his medication. The gravity of it sometimes knocks me off my feet, but as long as he can smile, so can I. He seems so mature for his 6 years, yet still young enough to have his spirit shine. I am fortunate to have gotten to witness this miracle in his life, in all of our lives. I am so proud to be the mother to my boys. Each one of them makes me proud in their individual ways.
I am very blessed.
I just finished watching the Academy Awards and I must say it was quite good this year. I only fast fowarded through some boring stuff only a couple of times. Who really cares about sound mixing anyway?
Hugh Jackman was a great host. I loved all of the musical performances, he's just so talented...and sexy as hell. Wooooo!
Moving along....I'm so, so happy Kate Winslett won best actress for The Reader. I had the opportunity to watch it last night and her performance was, again, amazing. She has so much range, I just love her. I still think Leo was robbed for Revolutionary Road, but what's done is done. The Reader is a quiet movie, and a character driven film, which are my favorite type. When I say she has range I mean it, because I didn't care much for the character of Hannah, but Kate's performance of her was perfection. It's nearly impossible not to like Kate, but you quite possibly have no sympathy for her character which is why she's such a great actress.
Slumdog Millionaire was the biggest winner of the night with best director, cinemetography, film and so on. It was well deserved. I've also seen that movie and I loved it. It's such an optomistic, touching love story and the message spans from India to stories all over the world. The cinemetography was beautiful, creative and guided the film's emotions. It was brilliant.
On another topic...I start my orientation tomorrow for my new job. I have to be up so early. It's the extreme of my other night shift job. Let's hope I can get up on time. I don't do well with alarms.
I hope all is well...
